Guys stop sending mixed signals!

Okay,so taylor flutted with me today{wich inloves me needing to wash my jacket ,if you want to know just ask,I don't want to bore you if you don't care tho.}.But he said that he dosen't like me anymore.So how am I sposse to take that?
I don't know what dose everybody think...?
On other news,we did win the compation I told you about yesterday.84 to 177.By alot basically.

Taks testing,beating our leaders

Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills.In a week!Well the english one anyway.
A day before my brithday.Fun right?
Anyway, my youth group is haveing a comption anginst our leaders.What we do is we write down stuff good that we've done this week on a yellow{leaders have green}peice of paper and put it into a jar.Were wining and to tell you by how much the ratio is probly about 1:20 so I think that were going to win{we count the blaits tonight.}
The bad thing is one of are youth has betayed us,and is helping the leaders.Amd shes done alot.
So ,were mad at her becuse who ever wins gets severed ice

Tuesday!

I know I'm going to sound paranoid.But I think my teachers are out to get me.
I think that they have metting every monday and decied on what day to asign a lot of homework.
I mean 8 hard promblems in math,a english final copy,studing for a test tommrow in reading,and ATHOR test in scince. Come on haven't you ever hread to space out the Homwwork you give?And the teachers wounder why most people don't turn in there homwork work!I mean, shesh! Way to ruin any socail life that I had!
Okay done ranting.
Have you guys ever heard of apple sauce cake?well i know it sounds natey .But its actullay quite good.


Heres the recipe

Apple sauce cake

2 1/2 cups of all purpose cake flour
2 cups of sugar
1/2 cups shortening
1 1/2 cups of apple sauce
1/2 cups of water
1 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda
1 1/2 teaspoon of salt
3/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
1/2 teaspoon ground allspice
1/4 teaspoon baking powder
2 eggs

Seat of to 350 and cook till brown {maybe about 40 mintues}
Key:

Purple:Fraction measuments{no it is NOT 21 cups of flour}
Yellow:Full measuments
Red: Things you will need

If you have ANY questions about the recipe or want to comment about the Homework rant,please do.

Mondays...

I hate mondays... Whos dosen't?
This is my youtube acounnt. Check it out.
http://www.youtube.com/user/Wearefallingup
and for those of you people who haven't seen step up 2.I found the dance comption.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kc0zJxpORzU&feature=related
Taylors Lieing to me again,{he dose this ALOT}.I wish I knew the truth.{I can't tell you guys... Its not something that intersting anyway.}I hate when he lies to me,but I can't do aything about it so....
We got our crouse cards for next year today.I got English,and Science.{I would have gotten Histroy to but I told my teacher I didn't want it.}

They need to forget.

My Brithays soon.I forgot to say.But I don't really care about it.For all I know My parnents will forget{again}.There the only ones who ever get me something.So no one will rememeber.
But I think I would reather them all forget.It would be esier.

So a re-post

I thought I would re-post this now that people are acuttlay reading my blog.

I would cry
If no one would stare
and I would cry
if no one would care
cuz I feel broken
so broken
but what would I give to cry?
everything
I feel so bad
I wish I couldn't fell
But I can't tell any one
cuz it hurts to much to say
I wanna disappear
never to be sen again
so every time he walks by
I want to cry
but I won't let him see me cry
I think he knows how much he hurt me
but he doesn't care
he keeps breaking my heart
and after all hes done after
all the lies hes said
I still love him
so I hurt
I wish I could hate him like he deserves
he told me I love you
just to take it back
I'll be broken,
I'll be alone
on Valentines day

I wrote this the day Taylor told me he didn't love me anymore.I hope you guys enjoy it.

{So,what do you think aboutmy poem please comment}

Okay if someone brooke your heart please send this link to them.They should know how much they hurt you.And if they broke up with you through some one esle please smack them over the head for me. Please and Thank you.

My sisters B-Day

Today is my sisters Brithday.And that means were acullay going to have a good diner,and have cheesecake and ice cream.
Shes turning 17 for those of you that are intersted.
Today we fixed the fence ,{our cat kept going into the neighboors yard,and we had to chase her so she could be put to bed ,it will be esier to get her now that the fence is fixed.}

Too true

Love sucks when its gone,but when your in love its the most wounderfull thing ever.

Broken

I found a song by Seether and Amy Lee {the singer from evanescence} I really like it even tho it isn't fast.Check it out yourself http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CoUOrLe4vlY.

Scars

I think I 'm finnaly over him! The scars still show.It will be a while till I'm preftley fine.But I'm just happy I don't fell bad all the time.Its a step up.I still feel bad sometimes but it beats feeling like crap that the whole time.

Giving up.

“Giving up dose not always mean that you are weak,sometimes it means your strong enough to let go”
Good quote.
I was just looking back at the music I listen ,one of the songs, Mad at Gravity - Walk Away {http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XymMoU3hQGc&NR=1},seems to fit me some-what.
I hated today.He dosen't talk to me anymore.he said the last we spoke that he did care what happened to me{has to be a lie}.He dosen't relize how badly hes hurting me.Every time I see him...Every time I hear his vocice it hurts.But I don't care, I want to be talk to him,I want to see him, even tho the second hes gone I'll be in pieces.
One of my teachers asked me what was wrong,she said I've been really quite.I told her it was just the Homework.She didn't buy it.Some teachers are smart{weird I know}.
we are falling up

Normal day,today...

Okay,nothing that great or bad has happened today.But todays not over yet.You knnow what something has happened toady I haven't eaten.My Dad never gets enough food.
Today I'm going to a thing called Young Weomen for my church.
Well not much to say really....

I hate him but....

gr...Why dose he have to mess around with my fellings

So today...

Today was as nomarl,well as it gets for me recantly.I told one of my friends about me and Taylor. I told her more then I told you guys so I'll cacth you up.Okay,both Taylor and I have a Yahoo acounnt and we are on yahoo messenger.So thats how we talking Saturday.He told me that he was going to block me,becuse he thought I said I was mad at him was becuse ,and I qoute 'Your mad at me cuz I don't like you anymore,and thats just wroung'.I try'd to tell him different ,but he had his mind set.He told me he was going to block me on yahoo and take me off his friends!I panicked and I said things I shouldn't of.I told him I love you and, true as it is ,I should'nt have told him a word.Becuse peolpe like him take I thought he sould tell everyone.
But he didn't, it was all for fun.
But today he didn't say anything about....Saturday.He just gave me a funny look when he saw me after getting of his bus this morning.
I wish I didn't tell him aything!I mean I know that hes said it to me but that was before....well before my life toke a horilble,and drasict change,but 'd rather him not know how much I care about him.
I hope he hasen't told Asuitn {his best friend}.
O yeah,and hes already moved on from the last girl,he likes anthor one now,and they've already kissed![they haven't even gone out yet!}

He did it for fun

Turns out, he didn't mean anything he said yesterday{the things that sent me into depperson.}I was just talking to him.It turns out he just wanted to see how I would react.He got what wanted,I reacted .

I've got problems

So I'm mest up.I know it.I blame Taylor.
"Only people who you truly love can mess you up this badly."
~me
Don't I know it.

Falling in to the oblivion

Today was so bad.Crying is now second nature to me.I'm falling apart and no bodys knows.I can't listen to a love song with out crying.I thought things got simpler after time passed but i got worse not better.And man am I mest up right now.I fell like I'm a miilion parts.I fell like it shouldn't hurt this much.But it dose.
I'm here but I don't feel like it.
I'm thinking about telling my oldest sister,I mean she not the nicest but when it comes to something like this,I'm pretty sure she would be nice.And she is smart enough not to tell my parents.
But I don't know.I'm not sure if I want her to know.
I bet your woudering why its been such a bad day.Taylor got on IM.And I was stupied enogh to think I was strong enough to talk to him. As you can probly tell I'm not.I'm mently unstalbe now. For right now ,I'm in a rut .And pray for me.Cuz I would love to get out.
So What do you think should I tell my sis?
Falling hurts.

3.5 miles

I walked 3.5 miles. . .Well says my dad.I Think it was 4 miles.
We got lost.Even though my dad never admitted it.We got lost.Luckly we saw a cell phone tower or we would STILL be lost.
Its hot down here so it wasen't fun being lost.Its 80 right now.

I started the thrid world war!

I got a youtbue acount last night.And Man some of those people are just plan out mean that post on a video.{mostly the people who posted on the pain ,three days grace one}.I say one thing not mean at all and all the sudden whosh!I've strated the thrid would war!
Next time I post on something I'm gonna have to be REALLY carefull.I don't like people mad at me,even if I did do nothing wroung.
heres the link to my acount
http://www.youtube.com/user/Wearefallingup
I now if you look at the internet adress {as shone above} its basiclay the same thing as my blog acount,but I like the name.
Cheak out my favorites.

All Aound Me

A good song by flyleaf.All around me {http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-sNIWi2fLs}

Hold on

Sometimes when life stabs you in the gut, you get over it. Sometimes when your life sucks its because something or someone is missing. Sometimes your broken beyond repair,and sometimes it fells to bad to even talk.
Time heals all wounds?No, it doesn't. You only get use to the pain. It will never be truly gone,when you love someone and they not there anymore.
Faith. Faith that a day will come and you won't fell like crap. Faith that next time you hear there name, you won't fall on the ground crying. Faith,that someone or something will fix your broken heart.
Cuz never in life can you know love in tell you've felt pain.
And when your falling and you've lost all faith remember this,there will come a day that it hurt as much. There will come a day when the scars on your heart are less noticeable.
Falling is what happens when someone builds you up. Falling is what happens when you love someone and they leave.
So broken hearted,I help those in need.Ones that don't know that strength is all it takes to hold on.Even when your world is in pieces. Hold on.

S.A.D. {today}

Singles Awareness Day. S.A.D.
How I feel today.He didn't even talk to me!
I feel bad but today is sopose to be a happy day so I have to act extra happy.Its hard,with all the couplles.But like one of my friends said 'you'll get over him' I hope she right.
I was crying like mad yesterday and thismy sister tryed to cheer me up{she found out.I don't know how}It didn't work I was listening to this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5xjSgcGTvc .

So for all those who had a good day,wounderfull.But for all those who had a bad, join the club.

I hate Valentines day!

It comes once a year but never at a worse time.
The girl that likes taylor,turns out that taylor likes her back!I fell so bad.I just want to skip tommmrow all together.But things don't work like that.
*huff*
So tommrow will be just plan bad.
On the plus side, I found out I'm good at acting no one knows that I want to cry every time I see him.So...yes?
I swear I'm so scrwed up right now.
I hope you have a happy Valentines day, if you don't we'll morn together.

Great book...sad book

Even more I never meant to love him...-was how love gave someone the power to beak you.
New moon chapter 9,page 219
I was thinking about that earlier,but even after all that happened I wouldn't give up one second of it for the pain to go away. I was so happy then. I'm not now,but you get some you lose some right?
New moon a book I can relate to right now. Its about a girl named Bella and a guy named Edward. Edward breaks Bells heart ,tell he he doesn't love her anymore. Shes broken for months in tell she hangs out with on of her old friends,Jacob. He brings her out of her depressed state.
I wonder who my Jacob.
I haven't cried today...yet.
O more enjoy full news today {yes,I'm jokeing} One of the girls in Taylors and my P.E class,likes him!I won't write her name but why dose he have to have 10 girls that like him?!Its getting annoying!

Weird day

Okay, so today was so weird. I can't deiced if I should be crying,or be smiling. Taylor talked to me, but then again,Taylor talked to me. Should I be crying? Mad? Frustrated?Happy? I'm sooooo confused.
Is it weird that I love him but hate him? I can't deiced which one is stronger...oh well, I can't think straight now anyway.

Oh, and here are my grades.
Reading
98

PE
96

Drama
100

English
93

History
85

Science
97

Math
95

I've been told I'm a nerd....who agrees?

Tme heals all wounds

Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of a second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind the bruise. It passes unevenly,in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but passes it dose. Even for me.
-New Moon,chapter 4,Page 93
I've heard that every wound can be healed with time,and I belived it.In till now.Shouldn't I be feeling better?
I thought I was gettting better, but I'm not.It still hurts so much.I've never felt so bad.

So...

I found out I just really miss him now.Before we found out we liked each other we were best friends.So now I don't have a best friend.Promblem is he won't talk to me, hes not good with break ups{if you could call it that}so...well I guss I'll just have to go without a best friend for a while.What did I expect? Likeing my best friend, you could call me a idoit for doing so.
Oh well,I'll get over it soon...I hope.

Today was a little better

Crying is not fun,but sometimes you can't stop it.But when your faimly members can't know what happened, you have to hide it.Recently its been hard becuse I have to go up stairs and blare my music....{boys like girls ,learing to fall} so no one can hear me cry.Cryings not me so no one suspcts a thing,exept when my eyes are blood shot.My sistes who I know have noticed something,have left me alone,to wich I am thankfull.
I'm getting better but its hard to get over someone who you see every day.Especially when you have his jacket in your locker. Don't ask.

BAD,bad day

Ever had a day that sucked so bad you would love to re-wined time ?Have you ever just wanted to stick you head in your locker and cry{as I did today,for the frist time ever}? Have you ever been so frustarted that the person you love can have so much effect on you?
I have.
This goses out to the guy who said 'I love you' to me and a month later takes it back.this also goses out to the guy who could not even tell me himself! I heard it from a friend {not sure shes one anymore she did'nt even seem to care that her best friend was crying.She conplained instead about a mean teacher to me while I was crying.}and{she seemed to make it her mision to keep remind me that he didn't love me and that he had already moved on}
This is to Taylor D.
But I say this, If you love someone tell them before its to late.
This might help if your trying to get over someone.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjri6CGuRtU

I know this is cheesy but I'm sad to day.

I would cry,
if no one would stare
and I would cry
if no one would care,
cuz I feel broken,
so broken
but what would i give to cry?
everything
I feel so bad
I wish I couldn't fell
But i can't tell any one
cuz it hurts to much to say

I wanna disappear,
never to be sen again,

so every time he walks by,
I want to cry
but i won't let him see me cry,
I think he knows how much he hurt me
but he doesn't care
he keeps breaking my heart
and after all hes done after
all the lies hes said
I still love him
so I hurt
I wish i could hate him like he deserves
he told me I love you
just to take it back
so I'll be with out him
on Valentines day

okay if someone brooke your heart please send this link to them.they should know how much they hurt you.And if they brooke up with you through some one esle please smack them over the head for me. Please and Thank you

What do you think?

Ok so I wrote this like two weeks ago.I like it but hey I'm only one person.
What do you think?
please commet even if you don't like it I want to know.


As easy as falling
The Beginning of The End
January/25/2009
9:59 P.M
She stood on the bridge. It was raining sheets of water,wind blowing though her black hair.
Its now or never, she thought. She had tried to do this before but her parents had stopped her, they had said it wasn't worth it.
They are wrong, she thought. She toke a step closer to the edge .They don't know whats happened. And they didn't. She had kept it all a secret. Everything, the people fallowing her to the things she did. She was not proud of them. She could get out of this easy. All she needed to do was fall. As easy as falling. It would only take a second. And who knows? It might not even hurt.
The wind blew. The rain beat her face again. She shivered. She looked down. The water was roaring and instead of the the normal blue water it was black. The sky was black too .
For the last two days it had been raining. Pouring actually.
“Its been taken after my mood,” she said out loud. Two days ago... the worst had happened two days ago. Her boyfriend, Jake, had died. And she had seen it all. I could have stopped it,she thought ,I knew what was happening.
A tear ran down her cheek,as she thought of him. She angrily wiped it away. Jake, would want her to be strong.
Strong... what a word . She thought for a second. A quote came to her mind.“It is easy to die, it's hard to live.” It fit, she was trying to commit suicide.
So did that mean she was taking the easy way out?
She was.
He would not want me to do this, She thought.
She turned around and took one step. Someone she knew was walking towards her, gonna take her home.
But as he got closer... the bad man.
“Die,” said the man and he pushed her off the bridge.
Her life flashed before her eyes...

If you try to copy write I have proff i wrote this before you had it so ,don't try.
P.S. Who knows were the quote is from?

Gryffindor,Slytherin,Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff?

If you like the Harry Potter
series ,I'm sure you've cauht your self thinking 'hey ,if i was a witch?wizard wicth house would I be in?'
Well this is your answer folks! I have thought about your problem.{And YES I do considerate a problem}
I went through about 20 tests to find this one and it is by FAR the best!
heres the link:
http://www.personalitylab.org/tests/ccq_hogwarts.htm
It might be long ,{it will take you about 30 minutes to do}but its worth it!
P.S. I'm a Ravenclaw.

Gordon B. Hinckley

I think most people know about Gondon B.Hinckley death on th 27th. For most of us Mormons {The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints} it came as a real shock.I'm gonna give you the readers digest version of his life.
He was born on june 23, 1910 Salt Lake city ,Utah. He was called to be the prophet of the church in March 12,1995.He died on the 27 of January.
So thats it I know its sad. We morn for him.
Plaese commet about him.

Any Ideas?

Hello, everybody.
I'm kindda new at this whole blog thing, anyone got some ideas for what for me to write about?